How it all started...

8.13.13

I was robotically browsing Facebook while sitting on my couch when I came across a sponsored post for a place called Fit Energy.  The post said it was for all fitness levels.  I was skeptical, because when people typically say "all" fitness types, it does not include those who weigh as much as I do.  For the record this is the first time I am publicly posting my weight (aside from myfitnesspal.com).  Anyways, I decided to email to get more information... I started it with... "I weigh around 340 lbs."  I did not want to give this person on the other end of the email a false sense of who could possibly be taking this class.
I played phone tag a little with the owner of Fit Energy... We finally spoke and I told her I would like to sign up for the 3days a week option.   She spoke to me a bit about my previous history with working out and food... And I was feeling pretty good, but VERY nervous!!!  Not only was I walking into a class that was completely foreign to me, but she was going to weigh me and take my measurements!!!!!!!  OMG, WHAT am I thinking????
Fast forward to 8.20.13.  I woke up at 4:30 am, got dressed... Almost had a panic attack and headed to the studio.  Of course I got there before they opened.  Once they opened I walked in and met Lori.  Someone else got their measurements first.... And THEN it was my turn.  I have never in my life been so embarrassed and scared... But I tried to fake it.  I went into the back... And my first road block... The scale doesn't go over 300 lbs.  guess who is over 300 lbs?  This girl.  Sigh.  Thank God Lori totally made me feel ok.  I told her my scale is able to calculate my weight.  She didn't ask me say the number she just looked at my paperwork.  In all its glory... There it was:  357 lbs.  Holy $hit!!!!!!!!!!!  Again, thank God Lori was so awesome.  Never once did I feel shamed.  She took the rest of my measurements and then I went back into the studio to prepare for the class to start.  Lori told me before class started some modifications I could do.
6:00 am:  class starts... Lori said "let's start with some jumping jacks...."  Thank you dear Lord Jesus for modification jumping jacks... A girl at 300+ pounds really can't do a jumping jack without getting hurt.  Trust me.  Things move at that weight that on most people don't.  I'll leave that mental note with all of you.  You are welcome :)

The first "station" on this circuit training that I did was box jumps .... I've seen this in TV.  I of course did a modified version.  I just simply had to step onto the box.  And with that my journey started!

The class ended with my sweaty body HUGGING the trainer!  Yep, that's me; the southern girl who ran up (ok let's be real... I walked) to the trainer and hugged her!

I went to my car and cried on the way home.  I did it.  I SURVIVED.  I can do this.  I can do this. I can do this.