Two Month Check-In

We are two months in with the Vent Fitness Reinvent Challenge.  This is the most dedicated I have ever been to a challenge I have participated in.  I can't pinpoint what is different this time except desire.  I think when you truly have a food addiction it takes a long time to find a place where you can truly accept change.  Over the past three years I have slowly accepted change. 

One thing that I think really helped me was photo journaling all of my food.  It's not only helped me stay on track with accountability -- but it's allowed me to look back and see what I was eating when I was losing more or less weight. 

I have started cooking more and more and actually enjoying it.  This is big for me, because honestly Rob has really cooked for me 90% of the time over the past ten years.  I have stopped eating certain foods, like cheese that I think are truly a trigger for me when it comes to binge eating.  I am not saying I will never eat another bite of cheese, but I am surviving just fine without it.  I have started eating more seafood -- and LOVING it. 

What I am not doing is starving myself.  I am not binge eating -- I honestly do not remember the last time I did binge.  This almost takes my breath away, because before this challenge -- I was binge eating several times a week.

I am down 20 pounds.  I am hoping to lose 10 more before the challenge is over.  My original goal for  this challenge was to lose 50 pounds and my biggest reason was to "win" the challenge.  I now have come to realize, winning the challenge would be amazing -- but I am now winning my life back.  Although I have been on this journey for some time now, before I viewed it as punishment.  Don't get me wrong, I still have bad days.  I still have cravings.  BUT, I am winning.  I am also getting better and better about not having those cravings so much. 

For anyone reading this who is on the verge of making a healthier choice -- DO IT!  Two months ago when this all started, I still had reservations of whether I would stick to this way of eating or not.  Now, I know that even after the challenge this is doable.  My life is so much more than these twelve weeks -- but these 12 weeks taught me so much about myself.  I can do this.  I will do this.  I am doing this.