No weigh In Sunday

12/29/15 - 300 pounds
01/03/16 - 294 pounds
01/10/16 - 294 pounds
01/17/16 - 292 pounds
01/24/16 - 293 pounds
1/31/16 - 291 pounds
2/7/16 - ??????????


So this past weekend I was away on an annual girls weekend trip I take with some great ladies.  I ate food I haven't had in over a month including:  Cheese (I literally almost died from how sick I felt), crackers, bread, pasta, and  ice cream.  Do I regret it, no?  BUT, I will say that I knew going in that if I indulged I would have a hard time with it mentally... and I did.  I have been in the biggest funk since I got back from this trip.  Just not willing to jump back in 100%, and I hate it.  It is only Tuesday, but I feel like I have been off plan for a month.  So with that said, tomorrow I am back at it.  Gym, food, all of it.  I feel better when I am being strict.  I never thought I would have that mindset, but I do.  Some people will argue that you have to "live a little...." and this is SO VERY TRUE.  BUT, people do not know how far and deep my addiction with food goes.  I do not expect people to understand and to follow my path, I just know what works for me.  Eating 100% healthy for a full month was the best and most accomplished I have felt in my entire life.  I felt more accomplished from eating healthy for a full month that I did when I graduated college or landed my dream job.  THAT is how serious my food addiction runs.  It's not a little snack here and there... it has run my life for SO long that I really never thought I could eat healthy for a full month with no cheats. 

So, stay tuned for my weigh in next week.  I didn't weigh in when I got back from the weekend away, because I knew it would be up.  I didn't want to add fuel to the fire of my mental battle. 

Again, thank you to all of you who take the time to read this.  I do not know your reason, but I hope in some way you can find some peace with whatever battle you personally face.  Food addiction is so seldom talked about, because often people are full of shame  -- I know I was.  But, once you face it and get support behind you... your life can be so much more peaceful.